Solve the Jumble

I just finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I feel all jumbled up--a side effect of the crazyy perspective stuff throughout the movie, I'm sure. But I get jumbled up a lot anyways.

Here I pause and take a deep breath. I'm not sure...about a lot of things related to my life. I know I don't wanna re-live the past. And I know I wanna be happy, free, adventurous, and on from there. I can make myself seem patient if I want to or have to, but I'm really not. I want everything right now, right this second. I don't wanna waste anymore time without it.

But... it's not a waste. Even all of the so-called wasted time I've spent this week watching movie after movie isn't really a waste, because they made me think. (I do need to get out of the house more though, or at least away from my computer screen.) There's no such thing as wasted time unless you hate what you're doing. And if you hate what you're doing, stop right now and move somewhere else. Do something you want to do. Do something that makes you happy, something worthwhile for you.

So there. I haven't wasted any time. All of my jumbled-up thoughts were there for a reason. I always end up where I'm supposed to be.

I'm glad.