I Need More Time

I hate getting that sinking feeling, when I feel like things are really hopeless but I can't think of what to say to push myself in the right direction again.

As much free time as I have these days, I still feel like there's not enough. I have too many things I wanna do. I wanna watch a bunch of disney movies + the others on the list Jen & I came up with (we should probably write them all down so we don't forget).

I wanna keep writing more of my current story...but that requires some research, so I need the time to do that.

I wanna go through Erhistaut and make changes so it's better. There are a lot of slight things I wanna change. Then I'd like to go back and read my first story & see if there's anything I can salvage from it.

I wanna spend an entire week, non-stop, playing my guitar and writing music. I wanna perfect the stuff I've already written and record it all somehow.

I wanna go off and have random adventures with my friends, and sleepovers, and just hang out with them more. I wanna see people.

I need to get a job. Badly. Because I need the money to learn how to drive. I need to learn how to drive.

But first, I need time. But the numbers keep changing on my clock. Just freeze for a little while. Come on.