I know things aren't fair--that's just a part of life. But that knowledge doesn't make anything easier. Knowing everyone else has problems too doesn't mean much either...It just makes you forget about your own problems for a litte while, if you can even do that. Forget, learn, move on. But it's impossible to forget. You'll always remember, for the rest of your life. Even the tiniest thing that nagged you years ago. You think you'll forget that, but you don't. Time doesn't possess the ability to erase memories. Pieces of your past and your regrets stay with you.
Being intelligent and knowing things doesn't make you wise--just knowledgeable. Wisdom is when you grasp something and you almost don't want to acknowledge it or tell anyone, because you don't think anyone can understand. But you know inside that it's true. But you don't want to be special like that. You just want to be normal and predictable and easy to get along with...not silent and reserved, because too much of you is too complex and deep for anyone to understand. You want to find someone who won't blame you, won't tell you you're crazy. Someone who will just listen and try to understand, even if he doesn't really. Someone who will trust you and let you have your moment of silence when you're struggling for words--something to say that will finally get them to realize exactly what you mean when you speak. Because then you won't feel alone anymore. Someone will be able to understand and love you unconditionally.
Courage is when you're so, so scared and afraid that you want to just turn around and run far away until nothing can touch you, so you won't be afraid anymore. But you realize you cannot do that. You have to ignore your fear or embrace it and do whatever it takes to get past it and do what you know you have to do.
yes. my thought process is very strange sometimes.
stephanie
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Nah. Unless that makes the two of us who have weird thought processes....
I have the same thoughts/definitions of what you've written, pretty much to the T (ok, maybe not to the T EXACTLY but still.... altered just enough to fit my own personality I suppose) - except for the definition of wisdom, and even then it's very similar. :)
haha well maybe to everyone else it's strange or just too philosophical...but you're my twin after all so I figured you'd agree with me lol XD
"You want to find someone who won't blame you, won't tell you you're crazy. Someone who will just listen and try to understand, even if he doesn't really. Someone who will trust you and let you have your moment of silence when you're struggling for words--something to say that will finally get them to realize exactly what you mean when you speak. Because then you won't feel alone anymore. Someone will be able to understand and love you unconditionally."
You are incredible.
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