I really annoy myself sometimes. Mainly when I'm foolish or spend forever preparing to do something because I'm too afraid to do it, or just when I let myself get my hopes up only to watch them come crashing down. Guess that's just a side effect of having a wild imagination. I hate regret too. I have this...thing, it's not really a problem though, where once I get an idea in my head I pretty much can't live with myself unless I follow through. But sometimes fear gets in the way. That's when my annoyance really kicks in, cause of course I can't help being insanely afraid sometimes, but I should still be able to overcome it, right? Or at least embrace it and accept it, but just keep going and do what I have to do anyways.
And how do I even know what to do? In life you have to just...make spontaneous decisions, with absolutely no clue where they might take you. And that's the truly scary part. Everything matters, when it comes down to it. You don't have time or a bunch of chances to try out several options and see where each one leads you. You have to just choose one. And follow it. No matter what happens.
steph
p.s. i feel like i wrote something about this before...maybe in my old blog. lol whatever :)
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Just wanted to remind you, that making decisions doesn't have to be scary and random if you don't want them to be! Remember that God is your ultimate focus and goal and desire, and the Holy Spirit will move in you and in your life, and guide you to the place you were meant to go. :)
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